“I didn’t think I was a personal problem. You hate me, remember?“
"Every inch of you,” Andrew said. “That doesn’t mean I wouldn’t blow you.”
The world tilted a little bit sideways. Neil dug his shoes harder into the floor so he wouldn’t fall over. “You like me.” “I hate you,” Andrew corrected him, but Neil barely heard him.Happy 17th birthday Kahlia, @monstrouss!!!
Andrew: I feel like doing nothing.
Neil: I’m nothing. Do me.
Minimalist Posters - Andrew Minyard & Neil Josten
“How a man who viewed the world with such studied disconnect could kiss like this, Neil didn’t know, but he wasn’t going to complain.”
Ooops, I did it again.
Sorry, can’t get over andreil ringtone.so this one’s for you @sohereisthisasshole ajfhafjhafdk
hope you like it !! tho you’re to nice to say differently even if you don’t
so ¯\_(ツ)_/¯
“Thank you,“ he finally said. He couldn’t say he meant thanks for all of it: the keys, the trust, the honesty and the kisses. Hopefully Andrew would figure it out eventually. “You were amazing.”
An important thing to consider:
- Andrew likes the quiet and darkness of sitting alone in a playground at night
- Smoking alone in the park in the middle of the night is calming and fits his loner aesthetic
- Andrew likes swings, but he probably would never tell anyone but Renee and Neil about that
- Sometimes he just goes and sits on them
- Sometimes he swings as high as he can and debates jumping off of the swing and whether the rush of fear he would feel when he goes flying would be worth it
- Other times he half-heartedly swings absentmindedly
- He starts taking Neil with him sometimes and they sit on picnic tables and the play-structure and talk and make out
- Now, for the important part
- A lot of small parks tend to have the set of two baby swings and the set of two normal swings that has one perpetually broken one
- So, there’s only one real swing there and Andrew takes it and doesn’t start swinging, but pushes himself around a little with his feet planted on the ground
- Neil stands in front of him watching
- Andrew says “Come here”
- Neil walks over and Andrew checks if it is okay with Neil and then gets Neil to sit facing Andrew and straddling his lap with Neil’s legs hanging off the other side of the swing than Andrew’s
- Andrew’s hands are on the chains of the swing for balance purposes, so Neil puts his on a different part of the chains, but then Andrew gives him permission to touch from the waist up
- Neil wraps his arms loosely around Andrew’s torso to keep himself from falling and to be closer to Andrew
- He’s careful not to hold onto Andrew too tight though
- Neil waits a second to make sure Andrew is really comfortable with this, then buries his face in the crook of Andrew’s neck
- Neil’s not even kissing Andrew’s neck, he’s just being close to him
- Andrew pushes off with his feet for them to swing
- They don’t swing high and they’re swinging super slow, but it’s so quiet other than the squeak of the metal in the swing and they get to have a little peaceful alone time
- [Also, this is dumb, but I gotta make the joke: “I thought you didn’t swing.” “I only swing with you.”]
“if you have to keep asking because–i’ll answer it as many times as you ask. but this is always going to be yes.”
“don’t ‘a l w a y s’ me.”
He didn’t want to leave Andrew with nothing, but what could he possibly say? “Thank you,” he finally said. He couldn’t say he meant thanks for all of it: the keys, the trust, the honesty, and the kisses. Hopefully Andrew would figure it out eventually. “You were amazing.”
Anonymous said:can we talk about how andrew was so attracted to neil like instantly and he just gets more and more attracted to him because he's not just pretty anymore he's Neil Josten he's fierce and passionate and a total mystery but andrew doesn't ever try to make a move. he gets into neil's space, touches him when he can pass it off as casual, but he never tries to kiss him or coerce him because he thinks neil isn't interested and won't try to change his mind or force anything because he respects neil
hahahahahhahaha andrew thinks neil is just a pretty crush he can get over but he turns out to be everything he never knew he wanted and needed and will spend the rest of his life loving and protecting him just like neil will spend the rest of his life doing the same hahahahahahahahha ahha a aaa
He couldn’t say he meant thanks for all of it: the keys, the trust, the honesty, and the kisses. Hopefully Andrew would figure it out eventually.
“No,” Andrew said, and Neil’s hand froze a breath from Andrew’s arm. Andrew went still as well, and they stood for a minute in awful silence. Finally Andrew looked back at him, but for a moment Neil didn’t know who he was looking at. In the space of one breath Andrew’s expression went so dark and distant Neil almost retreated. Then Andrew was back, as calm and uncaring as always, and he caught Neil’s wrist to push his hand to the side. He dug his fingers in before letting go, not quite hard enough to hurt, and said, “That’s why.”